(This turned out to be a extremely long post, I hope anyone will read it. I had to get this off my chest.)
As the crypto market is still stumbling and trying to recover it just hit me...
January 14th last year was my last day everything was normal to me.
I invested in crypto for the first time in May 2017. Bought some more in the following months, I eventually poured in 90% of my savings. Then we bought a house in August of 2017, we'd get the key halfway in November. Tons and tons of work had/has to be done in this house, so I really started focussing on crypto. Me and my wife were also expecting twins, so I HAD to get certain things done before June 2018..
I went up 60% of my investment in a few days when CFD (Confido) boomed. I was lucky enough to be there on Etherdelta when it became available, bought the first loads people sold after ICO. Took me a few hours of trading, but I had profit! Instantly cashed the profit, because we had to pay a few K's before I could get the key, so I was close to fucked but I just made it out alive. Especially as I saw they exit scammed and I saw my portfolio drop by nearly 70%, but luckily I had the money I needed.
In the next months I made some good choices, bought Snovio at 0.004 cents and saw it raise to 40 cents I believe, my investment wasn't huge but the return was insane. Could have much bigger, but I sold slowly as it kept rising to be safe. Other big coins were Raiblocks, Oyster Pearl. Crypto took over my life, every waking hour I was trading / reading / looking up on coins I could invest in etc. I saw a growth I could not imagine, I had about 2000 in and saw it grow to 32-35k. Cashed out a bit, saw prices drop, invested again and so on. It was insane because I was doing 3-4000 trades and sending so much money around all the time, I had the time of my life.
Naturally I had a cash out goal because this entire project was to fund our renovation of the house, which is about 50-60k. As, I think, any human being seeing my investment grow so much I dreamed much further. At 30-32k I decided I HAD to cash out because this was not substainable, it went up way too fast for my liking and almost everything did in my portfolio. Our life was pretty good, without cashing out crypto we were able to live pretty good. We could go out for dinner atleast twice a month, spend money on things we liked and still have leftovers.
I decided to cash out on January the 14th of 2018. I couldn't at the time, though. I had been working and was chilling with my boss and some other people in a bar (I work in a restaurant, so happens fairly often). Tomorrow I would go and cash out, take my money and see how it'll go.
On monday January the 15th we had to get our scan at the hospital to see how the kids were doing, had to go there every 2 weeks. We'd finally learn about the gender! Went there in the morning. The nurse seemed troubled, went to find another nurse to check again. The legs were too short of both of our children and there were some other things I can't even remember, we had to go to a specialized hospital to further investigate. Sadly we had to wait until Friday the 19th... One thing was sure though, something was horribly wrong.
Of course we were completely crushed, I felt like our entire world just collapsed. Luckily we have family that instantly came to us to talk about it. I saw my wife go from the happiest person on earth to being deeply depressed. We held on to the thought hospitals can make mistakes, everything will be fine..
Friday the 19th came and they took 20 minutes listing the faults of the kids.. Except she said 'now I have to check the other kid..'. That took 10 minutes and I told the nurse to stop. Both kids had a skeleton abnormality (I hope google translate did that properly), some organs weren't on the right place, arms/legs were too short, most feet/hands did not have 5 fingers (some had 7 or 3).
They had no chance of survival, January 31 they were born dead. We had them cremated a few weeks later.
Damage had been done.. Our world was messed up, it was one huge haze and I honestly wish I'd wake up from this nightmare. I completely forgot about my coins, on January the 15th my portfolio started dropping too I found out later.. And rapidly. I think I checked it around january 25th. Not all was lost, though. I was able to take a month off work and continued some work in the house (I just had to do something), paid by crypto. Throughout the next few months I was able to pay out a few K's here and there, I think I paid out about 600% of my investment but I still lost like 22k of that portfolio growth.
I was extremely strong for my wife for the next months, when she crawled out of her depressiong around may 2018 I started feeling bad. Halfway in june I was at work and completely lost what I was doing, already had some anger issues (suddenly exploding towards people). Then I got a panic attack and this was it. I went home and went to a doc, it was a burnout. The 6 months after this have been hell, I went through extreme depression. I couldn't get groceries, couldn't handle full rooms of people, had trouble getting even out of bed because I was extremely tired and anger issues (I destroyed 2 of my PC desks, punched a hole in the wall and stuff like that. Nothing towards my wife thank god).
After that came thoughts of that I should commit suicide, because I had no life. Thankfully I could never do this to my family and I wouldn't even dare to make that final step. But the thoughts were there. Even though it has been my job now for 15 years, I couldn't even cook anymore. Gaming has always been my number one hobby, that brought no joy. I isolated myself, but thank god I have family that forced me to open the door or go to them.
Next to that came the expenses which have been on-going since February last year. We got hit by some big bills, when I got sick in january that took a pretty big hit in my salary. I now have a little over 700 of crypto, absolutely no money in the bank (minus, even). Can't buy anything I enjoy because we're still struggling from the disaster that was 2018. I still need 50k at least for the house, but maybe one day..
Fast forward to december, this was my turning point I think. Went to a therapist and found out work stress was also a major issue. I've been getting progressively better since the first week of december. I quit my job in that week. I'm talking major steps in the right direction and I'm feeling better almost every day.
Tomorrow the 14th of january will be my first day at my new job and I couldn't be more excited.
The point of my post is that I see so many people stress/worry about their coins/investment. I even see people fight to defend the coins they believe is the best and protecting them to no end.
While money is a handy thing to have, I am absolutely fine with where I am. We're struggling as I mentioned above, but just feeling better is worth more than a million dollars. I learned the value of other things than money. I was able to take a month off work to be here for my wife, without crypto none of that was possible. While the crypto money had a completely different destination, I could not be happier on what I have spend whatever I cashed out on.
Remember that your portfolio could raise insanely fast in the future (or drop...), but stay sane. There are far more important things in life, don't invest more than you can afford to lose and you should be ok. Don't lose sleep over your coins, don't be stressed. It can all be fun and glory until you get smashed from a completely different direction like I told you above.
For those who made it this far, thank you for reading. This was a tough post for me, I had to get it off my chest..submitted by /u/aevitas1